Friday, March 21, 2014


Notice the shadow? The shadow caused by the sun? That shadow is kind of a big deal to us since we went too long without seeing it.

I think the reason everyone is so grumpy over the weather is because we're teased with 70+ degrees one day and 35 degrees the next.  You can count on one thing in NC ... the weather being unpredictable.

I sat outside for the longest time yesterday.  It seemed like a sin not to.  Like if I let the day of sunshine go by, it might be snatched away because I was ungrateful.

I kept listening for sounds of Spring ... like birds chirping or maybe a lawnmower.

As it turns out, our 13-year-old neighbor boy got a new whistle.  Comparable to a whistle you might hear at a college basketball game ... the official kind.  And, he has decided to blow it non-stop from 3pm - 8pm.

Joy.  Except not.

I've been so tempted to ask him about his fascination, but I fear startling him, since he blows it while wearing his Beats headphones.

I know.

I don't want to talk about the whistle.

The rain and cold did give us a few gifts this week, like no golf or soccer practice.  It seemed appropriate since it forced us to slow down.  A reprieve from busyness is always a gift.

Emma did have her first golf match the week before last.

Being the only girl on the golf team is a little different {for both of us} but she is enjoying it so much.  She's a perfectionist, though, so lots of life lessons to be learned.

I've been on a monogramming frenzy.  {Monogramming is a verb, in case you didn't know}.

I've personalized over 45 bows in the last 3 weeks ... as well as umbrellas, water bottles, eyeglass cases and insulated cups.  Apparently that Silhouette machine I bought three years ago IS good for something.  It's a lot of fun.

I may be taking it too far, though.  Here are Emma's ball markers :) ...

As if being the only girl doesn't make her stand out enough, these ought to do the trick.

Eric and I have also been working hard in our house, cleaning and organizing closets and just getting rid of excess stuff.

We're starting to feel lighter :)

So, that's it.  That's all we've been up to.  Maybe the most exciting thing is that we're heading into another three-day weekend.  My favorite since it feels like two Saturdays.

And, Olivia informed me this week that there are only 9 more weeks of school.

That's the best news I've heard in awhile!! :)

Thursday, March 20, 2014

Standing On The Word

Eric and I spent ten years in youth ministry.  I was 6 months pregnant with Emma when he came home to tell me he had agreed to take over the ministry at our church for 6 months.

Those poor kids.  We had absolutely no idea what we were doing.

{My Emma, and one of our youth girls, Stacey,
at Emma's first youth camp.  She was 7 months old}

Obviously, six months turned into, well ... ten years.

Looking back over those formative years in my own walk with Christ, I cringe at the mistakes I made.

Eric kept insisting I teach a high school girls Sunday School class.  At the time, the boys and girls had class together and he felt strongly they should be separated.  It was a good decision {to separate them}, I just don't think I was the right person for the job.

I was still such a baby in Christ and had so much to learn.  I was holding so tightly to a set of rules and guidelines, so I could seem and feel holy ... and I passed those rules along to the girls.  I would learn of things they were struggling with or sin they were involved in and would set out to find verses to fit into a lesson to bring before them.

Bless their hearts.

Those years have been on my mind so much lately.  We are deep in the study of James, with only two weeks to go and I'm not sure I have ever dreaded to see a study end like this one.  That's saying something considering I've studied some really good ones with the ladies at my church, but this one ... it's so incredibly convicting.  I wake at night thinking about it.  Surely there isn't a more convicting book than James.

Yet, in all that conviction, and realization that I will be held accountable for every word out of my mouth, I am very thankful for the timing of God and His Word.

It should come as no surprise to me that during this very study, I have been challenged and attacked from every angle, and realize more than ever I must know what I believe and WHO I believe in. {This study could also be blamed for why I have been so quiet on this blog.  I'm just trying to discern whether or not my words are necessary.}

I am so far from perfect.  Shoot, I'm so far from even doing what's considered right most days.  I let the enemy put doubt in my heart about my ability to discern.  And, it just felt like too much to bear this time.

I have prayed "No weapon formed against me shall prosper" so much lately, I need to just make it into a song :)

WE all have a sphere of influence and have to be mindful of what we're doing and how we're leading others .... do we lead them to the cross or away from it?

I don't have a theology degree.  I break out into a sweat anytime I teach for fear I'm relaying the wrong message or got scripture all twisted.  It remains my biggest fear.  I don't think that's sin, I think that's healthy respect for God and His Word.

So, at the end of the day, I trust Him.  Sitting in my closet {it's where I do my best thinking} I finally said out loud, "God, you know I haven't a clue what I'm talking about half the time.  All I know is that I love you.  Is that enough? Will you watch over me and my words and fill in the gaps?"

He will.  He is faithful.  I trust Him.

And, as for those girls that had the unfortunate task of sitting under my teaching early in my walk with Christ? I wish I had that time back so I could tell them Jesus loves them where they are and they don't have to strive to be the 'good girl' everyone tells them to be.  Performance-based spirituality will leave us all lacking at the end of the day.  I would also tell them that we all are learning what it means to live righteously.  None of us has arrived.  The beauty of walking with the Lord is allowing Him, through His Word, to shape us into who He wants us to be.  I would tell them it's hard most times, but if we're willing, we will come forth as gold.  Jesus is the answer and as we learn to walk and rest in Him, He is faithful to guide us and lead us to righteousness.

The Word stands on its own and doesn't need to be defended.  That's where I must stand ... on His Word .. and, that's where I'll take my fears of messing it all up.

Monday, March 17, 2014

Rising Early

I have been getting up earlier.  Like really early.  Wayyyyyy before the sun early.

This isn't a big deal to 'morning people' and I wasn't going to say anything about it because it's surely profound to no one but myself {and maybe my family that has to endure mornings with me}, but after a few weeks {not even cheating on weekends} I'm pretty shocked myself.

And, more in awe of the grace of God.

I am NOT a morning person.  I've never really been one to lie in bed til afternoon, but I do like to wake up on my own {without an alarm} and ease into the day.

But, a funny thing happened.  I had a family and they had the nerve to need me in the mornings. Which really means I haven't eased into the morning in over 12 years.

I've gone through seasons where I would wake early for my quiet time, but nothing consistent.  I think all that changed when both of my girls started all-day school.  I had the luxury of taking them to school, returning to a quiet house and reading/studying all I wanted.

That worked well except it left me waking just in time to hang out with three people who love mornings {how did this happen?}, prepare breakfast, listen to very LOUD music coming from one daughter's room, while giving them the constant countdown ... "10 more minutes!"; "I need you downstairs in 5 minutes"; "Okay, everyone needs to be in the car in the next 60 seconds or we are officially LATE!".

And, I don't even know if grumpy is an accurate word to describe my attitude in the mornings.

I'll say this, my attitude was far from gentle and peaceful.  I've never equated those words with mornings at all.  It's just not natural.

But, something had to give.

I've pondered on verses like James 3:18 ...

"And the fruit of righteousness is sown
in peace of them that make peace."

... as well as formed accountability groups based on gentleness alone.  I truly desire to be gentle and peaceful for my family as well as sow seeds of righteousness in my girls and my husband.  So, in a {somewhat desperate} plea to God about the matter, I knew He wanted me to do more.

I felt strongly this was what He wanted for me, no matter how hard I knew it would be for me.

I will say, I'm enjoying it more than I ever thought I would! Like I said, I've had early morning quiet times before, but never a consistent, daily appointment ... mainly because I knew I would have time after the girls were in school.

It hasn't been a magic pill, but getting up an hour before my family has made all the difference in my attitude.  I can focus on them and what they need from me and not feel resentful that they're asking too much from me SO EARLY {I know how selfish that sounds}.

John Piper has a fabulous quote that I think of every single night around 9pm ...

The discipline to rise early is not as difficult
as the discipline of going to bed ...
The battle against weariness,
which makes us drowsy as soon as we 
open our Bible in the morning
has to be fought in the evening,
not just in the morning.

So, instead of a book or watching an episode on Netflix, I'm making myself go to bed.  It's making all the difference.

Praying I can continue.  My family needs for me to.  And, remember, 21 days make a habit.  I'm almost there ;)

Friday, March 07, 2014

Friday {Noticing Our Gifts}

We woke up to an unexpected blessing today ....

When we went to bed last night, we knew we would be on a 2-hour delay.  Then, just before the girls woke this morning, school was cancelled.

We love snow days but would be lying if we said we weren't ready for Spring ... doing all we can to bring it indoors :)

We've had a slower week this week.

Because of weather, Bible Study was cancelled, as well as golf practices and tournaments.

When we have unexpected time together, it seems like a gift.

Speaking of gifts .... these girls.

Possibly the greatest gift I've been given, along with Eric, of course ... and my salvation, but let's not get all technical.

{We've been having a lot of 'tea time' together, thanks to a gift from Eric.
He calls it a belated Christmas gift :) }

I've spent a lot of time this week pondering what a gift they are ... what would make me a better mother and wife {more on that later ... maybe ;) } and noticing the little things that make them unique.

My Olivia has the sweetest heart.  She erases all of my chalkboards around the house and writes her own notes.  She also turns down our bed every night and leaves me sweet notes {and treats!}.

My Emma has so much compassion.

She got in the car yesterday and started sobbing.  It took me a few minutes to figure out what was wrong.  She was crying over something that happened at school ... not to her, but to her friend. She is sincerely shocked when someone wrongs another.  I love her heart.

My family will always be the biggest reminder of God's Grace extended to me.

Someone asked me this week if my girls ever do wrong or argue.  Boy, do they ever, but this space ... this blog ... has never been {nor will it ever be} the place to air that.  We leave those things for the safety and privacy of our home.

But, one thing is for certain ... in the midst of the hard and sometimes not-so-pretty attitudes, we still recognize the gift we have in each other.

Friday, February 28, 2014

God's Redeeming Love {Day 28}: Be Doers of the Word

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Well, here we are ... at the end of the month.

I will say this about this month, it has stretched me.  Yes, I had already processed most of what I shared each day, but opening up about what I've learned personally isn't always the easiest thing for me.  Hearing some of your stories stirred so many emotions, though even through the difficult things, I loved reading so many 'BUT GOD' moments.

I'm so relieved He has the final say.

We're studying the book of James in Bible Study now and I'm currently hung up on one thought.  James 1:22 says "But be ye doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving your own selves."

I've always read that verse knowing we're suppose to do what the word says, but our work this week brought out the idea that to be a doer of the word also means to accept what it says.  And to not do so is deception {to our ownselves}.  Accepting what the Word says is accepting Who we are in Him.  

So, that's basically where we are at the end of this month.  Imagine we're standing at a crossroads and deciding what we'll do.  Will we take what we've heard and decide it all sounds nice and profound, but then choose to stay defeated? Or will we look down the road at victory that awaits us and walk in that direction?  

Choose victory.  Do the work.  Stay the course.  Don't just be a 'hearer of the word' and live in deception.

God loves you with an everlasting love!

Thursday, February 27, 2014

God's Redeeming Love {Day 27}: OVERloving

Sitting in church beside my Olivia, I glance at her journal.  She's taking notes while our pastor preaches and I see where she's taking it a step further and journaling her thoughts on what he's saying.

A third-grader's take away from a sermon is very different from an adult's.  Simple and profound. She stops, waits a moment and then draws a big G-O-D.  Using each letter as the beginning of an adjective, she writes GREAT, OVERLOVING, DELIVERER.


I point to the word and ask her what that means.  She looks at me over her glasses and whispers "Overloving? You don't know?"

You know, as a matter of fact, I do.

In a third-grader's economy, anything in excess is BIG, SUPER or OVER done.

Which sums up how we've been describing our wonderful God this month.  He overloves us.

I don't know .... I think that word will catch on ;)

God has, with our permission, revealed new things about Himself to us this month.  Things that were never meant to be mysteries, but things that must be pursued by a people eager to learn more about His character.

Hopefully, by now, you have journal pages or index cards full of Who He is and who you are in Him.

What will you do with this new-found information? How will you allow it to change you? Will you push it aside or will it become a new lifeline for you?

One thing is certain .... you can't un-know.

When we looked at John 14 earlier this week, we focused on the relationship we have with Christ when we accept Him as Savior and receive eternal salvation.

Verse 7 says " ... and you know the way to where I'm going".

In other words, it's not a secret that has been hidden from you, but one now that has been revealed. Now that you know, you can't un-know.

I firmly believe He'll hold us accountable for what we know and what we choose to ignore.

He loves us.  Simple and profound, easy enough for a third-grader to understand :)

The Truths are there for us to obtain permanent victory! Don't rest until you taste it.

Wednesday, February 26, 2014

God's Redeeming Love {Day 26}: Peace That Passes All Understanding

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With only a few days left in February, I wish we could all sit down and talk about where we are with the Lord.  I imagine we would have some neat stories to share with one another.

For me, these lessons {that were mostly in my heart or written in my private journal} have taken on new life as I've shared them so publicly.  I'm amazed at how much my own walk with the Lord has been enriched all over again by remaining sensitive to His Word in the area of how He's loving me.

During this month, I've also been keenly aware of how the enemy tries to thwart a plan.  I'm on to him and staying armed with the Word, yet I would be lying if I said I'm not a little worn from it all.

Don't mistake 'worn' for discouraged.  Not at all the same.  If anything I'm more encouraged that God wins.  He'll never leave us the same if we're willing to see something through to the finish.  What a blessing it has all been to me!

However, you may be like me and know through experience just what the enemy will use to discourage you. Not to say there aren't new schemes or surprises along the way, but for instance, I know when I'm starting something new with the Lord or committing to serving in a particular area, the enemy will use an old trick to distract me.  Usually it's a tactic to make me fearful and anxious.  I'll go even further to say it usually involves a lot of 'what-ifs' with my family.

I mention all of this to bring us back to the first devotion in this series ... renewing our minds.  The thing about the enemy using an old tactic is that hopefully, we're getting better at telling God on him.  Staying in prayer or in conversation with the Lord about anything the enemy tries to discourage us with is a perfect example of cultivating our relationship with our Savior.  He wants us to acknowledge the fact that, without Him, we are left weak and defenseless.  But, with Him, we are victorious.

Like I said, during this month, a familiar dart has been thrown my way.  I recognized it and would push the thought from my mind and pray instantly for God to keep me focused on His Word.

Just yesterday, I was feeling a little beaten down over it and became a little more desperate for relief. Asking for wisdom and guidance, God led me to Psalm 55:17-18 ...

"Evening, and morning, and at noon,
will I pray, and cry aloud: and he shall hear my voice.
He hath delivered my soul in peace from the battle
that was against me: for there were many with me"

And, just like that, the peace that passes all understanding washed over me and reminded me I am His and He loves me.

There really is no substitute for a genuine relationship with Christ and His Word.  Yes, my quick prayers for God to help me push back fearful thoughts were beneficial and kept me afloat, but I didn't receive real victory and peace over it until I stopped and spent some focused time in His Word over the matter.  

I could cry again just thinking about it.  Without the Word of God, we will most definitely be tossed around in this world that is contrary to how we believe and we'll be so worn and torn we won't recognize ourselves anymore.  Quick prayers and pleas are fine and have their place, but genuine time and study in the Word will be what delivers us.

There's simply no other way.

Tuesday, February 25, 2014

God's Redeeming Love {Day 25}: He Was Always There {A Testimony and Giveaway}

When I first joined the church I still go to today, I was reluctant to get involved.  Not because of anything other than the fact I was shy.

But, there was this woman that would NOT leave me alone.  Piper showed up everywhere I went {even my chiropractor's office}, inviting me to stuff ... meetings, events, whatever.  

It got to the point where I would notice her and turn and walk the other way, praying she wouldn't spot me - haha.  I laugh at that now because she is one of my closest friends and a true gift in my life! {She wore me down :) }

I mention all of that because after you read her testimony, you will see how God has miraculously changed her life.  She serves Him relentlessly and inspires me to do the same.

 {Piper and her husband, Benny}

{Our families, riding the Virginia Creeper ... we LOVE their family!}

Enjoy her testimony ... 

When I was a little girl I experienced loss ...

My parents divorced when I was 5.

A friend I played with almost all the time died when I was 7.
My Dad remarried.
My grandfather died when I was 10.

When I asked the Lord in my heart when I was 12 years old, He saved me by shedding His blood on Calvary. I do know that very day God put a desire in my heart that through the years became buried deep. You would think that would have saved me from a life of sin. Problem was I had no one leading and guiding me in the Lord.

My Aunt and my grandmother continued to pray for me. Problem was no one else, walked the walk or talked the talk.  My Grandmother would tell me God has a plan for you, and everything happens for a reason. I was a teenager. I had no clue what any of that even meant. 

I spent years and years searching for something....didn't even know what that something was.
I searched in places, went head first into sin and after sin, always coming up empty.

After a failed marriage that resulted in me falling deeper and deeper into sin's hold on me, I became very insecure. You see, I was believing all the lies that satan had filled my head with in the short time I was married.

You are useless. No one will ever want you. You are ugly. You are fat. You cause trouble.
You are a failure. It was like a recording that played over and over! 

Once again, I set out on a search to find whatever it was I was searching for. I was full of bitterness, unforgiveness, hatred, spite, you name it and that was me all rolled up into a big ol' MESS. All of my own creating.

You see, God will let you go as far as you can go. So I went. Again, I made bad choice after bad choice.

I woke up one morning, not exactly sure where I was, where I had been. Emotionally, I can tell you I was in a very deep pit. One that I, at that very moment, realized was of my own making. My choices had caught up with me. One bad choice led to another and another. I was at the end of myself. I knew that I could not do this anymore. I had no where to look but UP to the Lord. You know what? He was there with His arms open wide, just waiting on me. My child come home. Such love! 

He lifted me out of the slimy pit,
    out of the mud and mire;
he set my feet on a rock
    and gave me a firm place to stand. Psalm 40:2
Within days I was back in church, whenever I could go (I worked most Sundays). The first Sunday I went, there I sat, broken, full of fear, still full of all the junk that led me to that pit. The same pastor that baptized me when I was 12, was preaching on Forgiveness. Oh boy, just what I didn't want to hear. I was ready to check out. This was insane. How could I forgive him?? He broke his vows, his promises.
"Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other,
just as in Christ God forgave you." Ephesians 4:32 

As he broke this verse down, I was doing just fine until he said, "There is someone sitting in this congregation that is harboring unforgiveness. Your relationship with the Lord cannot grow with this bitterness and hatred in your life. No matter how you were wronged you are still commanded to forgive." 

My heart was pounding.  He didn't know the hurt inside, the pain that I was feeling. At this point I felt as if I was the only person in that sanctuary. He was looking directly at me and he said, "Jesus knows your pain, He felt that pain and pain you will never know. Don't you think He feels pain when you choose to sin? What if He didn't forgive you of your sins? What if He wouldn't forgive you for not forgiving another child of his? He loves you and He loves the person that wronged you." 

O.U.C.H. Hard words. Just plain TRUTH.

Broken and defeated, my heart was about to pound out of my chest. I knew that I had to ask to be forgiven. My sins were just too hard to live with any more. I couldn't get to that altar fast enough. I had to repent my wickedness before the Lord. I had to forgive the person that wronged me.... regardless if he even acknowledged it. I got up from that altar and was FREE from the bondage that had bound me so tightly. I chose that day to recommit my life to the Lord. This is the day, that I also found out that it was a relationship with Him that I was missing. No one had ever shared that with me. I learned that it must start with me and that day it did. 

It was in the days ahead that I realized through all I had been through in my life, HE WAS THERE! He was what I was searching for all along!! In all the ups and the downs He was always there. He had a plan for me just as my Grandmother always said. I thought of all the times I had been far from that plan. Going completely in the opposite direction. How could He love me? 

Because it is who He is. What He IS and always will BE. He took my bad and made it for His good and His glory! He has blessed my life more than I could ever deserve or ever imagined at that time in my life. Thank you Lord for loving me and rescuing me ....right there in that lonely pit of the muck and the mire. 
 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Jeremiah 29:11

My LOVE story with the Lord has had its ups and downs and there is so  much more that I can share. I am thankful that He isn't done with me yet!! My LOVE story continues as He works in my life. He set me on a rock that day that and I have to cling tightly to it most days. But His steadfast love remains. I was never good enough, I am still not good enough. BUT HE IS THAT WHICH IS ENOUGH!! I still fail, I still fall into defeat, I may change but His love will not!!

God loved me when I was that scared little girl.
God loved me through the hard teenage years.
God loved me through my failed marriage.
God loved me through my faults, my failures, my discouragement.
God loved me out of that pit. Set me on the rock and the path to redemption.
God loved me and He has poured blessings on me.
God loves me and He continues to love me even on my bad days.
He loves me with an ever lasting love. 

Do I understand.? No, but I do believe. Most days I have to remind myself that HE LOVES ME.

He has always loved me. And never once did He give up on me.
He changed my life for His good and His glory!
He was and is always there!!

He has always loved you. And He hasn't given up on you. He is always there! 


Thank you, Piper! I love knowing that through all the places we drag the Lord to, He still loves us and never leaves us.  

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To enter, leave a comment on THIS post, along with a way to get in touch with you.  Only one comment per person please.  I will close comments on Thursday at 8pm and announce a winner Friday morning.

Monday, February 24, 2014

God's Redeeming Love {Day 24}: The Beauty of Relationship

{The winner of the giveaway, chosen by Random Generator, is #17 Laurie O.  Laurie, email your mailing address and I'll get your necklace to you ASAP}

Understanding God's love for us begins by understanding who we are in Him and what that means for us as His daughters.

Throughout this month, we have learned we are Beloved, constantly pursued, restored and given a new identity in Christ.  We are all of these things {and more} not because of anything we have done, but all because of what Jesus did for us on the Cross.

By accepting Jesus as our personal Savior, we become joint heirs and receive eternal life.

John 14:1-3 says ...

Let not your heart be troubled: you believe in God, believe also in me.
In my Father's house are many mansions:
if it were not so, I would have told you.
I go to prepare a place for you.
And if I go and prepare a place for you,
I will come again, and receive you unto myself;
that where I am, there ye may be also.
John 14:1-3

"I go to prepare a place for you ... " is referencing a place at the Table ... a place of honor, a reward.  

Luke 22:30 ... "that you may eat and drink at my table in my kingdom and sit on thrones judging the twelve tribes of Israel."

This place, this table is for us as well.

Psalm 23:5 says “You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies …”.  This table meant complete fullness, fruitfulness and complete joy.  

We have place at the King's Table ... a place of honor.

How do I know this is for me?

Well, it's not because of anything I have done.  I didn't earn it out of works or talk myself into an invitation.  

When we recognize we are lost and need forgiveness of sin, then repent and ask Jesus into our hearts, we receive the free gift of salvation.  At that moment, the Holy Spirit dwells within us and we receive eternal life.

John 14:15-20 says ... 

“If you love me, you will keep my commandments. 
And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Helper,
to be with you forever, even the Spirit of truth,
whom the world cannot receive, because it neither sees him nor knows him. You know him, for he dwells with you and will be in you.
“I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you. 
Yet a little while and the world will see me no more,
but you will see me. Because I live, you also will live. 
In that day you will know that
I am in my Father, and you in me, and I in you.

The answer to our reward is in the last verse.  Jesus is speaking and says ... "I am in my Father, and you in me, and I in you."

I can explain it best with a visual illustration, using envelopes ...

The first envelope says 'Father' ... 

The second, which is inside the first, says 'Christ' {"I am in my Father ..."}

The third, which is inside the second, says 'Deidre' {"I am in my Father, and you in me..."}

The final envelope is inside the third and says 'Christ' {I am in my Father, and you in me, and I in you"}


Too often, we forget just what the gift of Salvation means for us.  We excuse the profound love it took for Jesus to die for our sins, just so we, through accepting Him, would have a way back to Him.  If He never does another thing for us, we are blessed enough for eternity.

1) Ask yourself if you have ever received this gift.  Have you accepted God's Son, Jesus, by asking Him to forgive you of your sins?
2) Do you feel or sense the Holy Spirit at work in your life, through conviction? I often say we shouldn't be afraid of this conviction, but see it as a beautiful thing! The Holy Spirit is alive and active in us ... a gift of God.

If you can answer 'yes' to the above, you have a priceless, precious relationship with the Father.  

He loves you simply based on that fact, nothing more or less.

Rest in that GIFT today, knowing you have been extended enough love for eternity.


Walking in Truth:

Self image says:  I am a MISTAKE
God's image says:  I am WONDERFULLY MADE

My frame was not hidden from you,

when I was being made in secret,
intricately woven in the depths of the earth.
Your eyes saw my unformed substance;
in your book were written, every one of them,
the days that were formed for me,
when as yet there was none of them.

Psalm 139:15-16

Scripture for the Heart:

Let not your heart be troubled: you believe in God, believe also in me.
In my Father's house are many mansions:
if it were not so, I would have told you.
I go to prepare a place for you.
And if I go and prepare a place for you,
I will come again, and receive you unto myself;
that where I am, there ye may be also.
John 14:1-3

Sunday, February 23, 2014

God's Redeeming Love {Day 23}: My Stability

I crave stability, along with the assurance I am safe.

My anxiety is at an all-time high when I feel threatened in either area.  When I let my mind 'go-there', I can talk myself into a mess.  This is especially true at night.  I've been known to catalog all the things I did wrong or forgot to do that day and before I know it, I'm defeated by the mere thought of facing another day, only to repeat the same.

This cycle really wasn't working out for me {duh!}.  My prayers changed dramatically when I realized I needed to stop accepting this as my reality and understand what God wanted for me instead.

I had to first understand where my stability and safety comes from.  I can look at many people or situations to create what I 'think' is stable, but if I leave out God and His ability, I am mistaken.

The only real rest comes from taking a breath, trusting and knowing God is watching over all my trials.  I can rest easy knowing He is awake, looking out for my best interests.

Just another way He loves me.

And wisdom and knowledge shall be the stability of thy times,
and strength of salvation: the fear of the Lord is his treasure
Isaiah 33:6

I lift up my eyes to the hills.
From where does my help come?
My help comes from the LORD,
who made heaven and earth.

He will not let your foot be moved;
he who keeps you will not slumber.
Behold, he who keeps Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.

The LORD is your keeper;
the LORD is your shade on your right hand.
The sun shall not strike you by day,
nor the moon by night.

The LORD will keep you from all evil;
he will keep your life.
The LORD will keep
your going out and your coming in
from this time forth and forevermore.
Psalm 121

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