It's just hard.
Everything is hard.
Including going to church today. I have to be honest and tell you I do NOT want to go. I do NOT want to see anyone and I do NOT want to talk to anyone.
That sounds incredibly selfish and maybe even immature, but my nature is to shut the world out when I hurt.
I want so much to be able to hold it together and I fear I'm not going to be able to do that.
So, this morning I'm clinging to verses I have hidden in my heart and praying God carries me today ...
My grace is sufficient for thee:
for my strength is made perfect in weakness.
2 Corinthians 12:9
When thou passest through the waters,
I will be with thee; and through the rivers,
they shall not overflow thee:
when thou walkest through the fire,
thou shalt not be burned;
neither shall the flame kindle upon thee.
Isaiah 43:2
Also, please know how very thankful I am to all of you who have sent me emails/comments praying for me. Each word has been so uplifting and like healing balm to my broken heart. When I can't seem to pick up my bible, I read an email that reads like someone is praying God's Word all over me and I feel lighter. I am amazed at the body of Christ and how He uses those who don't even know me personally to lift my name to Him. I will never be able to express what that means to me.
6 comments:
Continue in those things which you have learned and seen and heard in me, do thou this......I am learning to speak KJ....love you D. and lifting you to the Father !
LB
Walk one day at a time, and sometimes it is only one moment at a time. But keeping walking,walking, walking.
I'm so sorry about your friend. Your honesty is very refreshing. Those verses are great.
Praying for you during this time. I'm so sorry.
Praying God's amazing grace will cover you!!
Love & Prayers....
My heart aches for you as you deal with this loss in your life. All I can say is that you are loved and adored by the creator of the universe and He cares about every single detail of your life.
My mom passed away in February 2005 after a four month battle with cancer. She was my best friend. I know all too well your desire to shut everyone out. I sometimes still deal with that. But God knows. I think that as long as we are still listening for Him and looking toward Him for our emotional and spiritual healing, then we'll make it thru.
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