Reality.
I suddenly felt very sad. So sad, I walked out of my closet and crawled back in bed. It just stinks that I am going alone. Normally, I have no problem going places alone and I'm certainly not fearful of traveling alone. I just wish things were different and my friend, Pam was going with me.
I remembered a conversation Pam and I had about the SMT Celebration. When we first talked about going last year, she said, "Lisa and I were talking and it may not be a good time of the year to go because we could have bad weather in January". I replied in my usual sarcastic way, "Pam, we're flying into Texas! Who cares what the weather is like here? We'll be with Beth Moore and Travis Cottrell!" We both laughed and committed again to going.
It makes me smile that after an already unusually cold winter here, it's sunny this week with temps in the 60s. Feels like Spring.
God is into the details, isn't He?
I'm riding such an emotional roller coaster this week, the slightest bit of cold air would have me doubting my trip. Silly, I know. It's just where I am. I've gone through so many emotions - head over heels in love with Eric for doing this for me ..... and, the next minute .... completely ticked off at him for doing this for me. He knew once the ticket was bought, I couldn't back out. Dern.
So, I'm hoping to muster up some courage to pack between now and Friday. I'm asking God to help me see Him in every circumstance. I'm not really sure what the big deal is about this trip and why I 'have' to go. I know He has a plan and I don't want to miss what He wants to show me.
Would you pray for me?
17 comments:
absolutely honored to do so. Cant wait to hear what you share on the other side of this trip because surely God has some great stuff in store for you. And how sweet of your husband to send you.
Dearest Deidre, God knew this time last year you would be making this trip alone. I would not begin to tell you why he has you going but I know he does. You lead so many of us each day and do a beautiful job so I think we are all going to glean from what you experience this weekend. So many of us wish we were going but everything is as it should be. Girl, you are prayed over and prayed through. Take pictures and tell us how God shows off this weekend!
Praying, Deidre. He will do more than you could ever ask or imagine on this trip.
I am praying for you! I am sure it is going to be so hard NOT having Pam there with you, esp. since you were going together, but I know the Lord has something so special for YOU! I have to say I am so excited for you! I can't wait to hear about it when you get back! Please text me and let me know when you get there.
PJ
It's going to be a blast!! I've been to Beth's conferences before...in HUGE venues...and now...in two short days...we are heading to her church!! to sit close enough to actually see her speaking!! :) I CANNOT wait!!!...for that part...
now, the going knowing NO ONE...not sure how I'm getting places...not having ANYTHING to wear for 70 degree weather (a nice problem)...and not really very extrovertish like every other siesta seems to be...THAT all has me starting to get a stomach ache.
From the beginning, I've thought of this trip as a journey to the finish line...a trip I'm taking with Jesus. When I can focus on that, I'm OK. I want Him to be in my every moment as we "go away" together for three days.
I'm so excited to meet you Deidre :) If you want to connect before this weekend, here's my e-mail. (gtindo@q.com) If you don't get a chance~ I'll just see you there! :)
praying for you~
Traci
"...He takes hold of your right hand and he says, Do not fear~
I am with you~I am here~"
Isaiah 41:13
Oh friend... as I've told you before, I know the heavy heart you are carrying... & I know there is nothing anyone can do... so yes, I will pray for you... for your packing & for you throughout this WHOLE trip... Praying God heals that ache & missing piece of your friend just a little bit... That you feel HIM next to you every step of the way... that you come back with a sense of peace & strength you didnt know you had!
(((HUGS))))
I actually woke up thinking about you this morning.
I have a dear friend who lost her best friend suddenly to a brain aneurysm in October, and her heart is just so broken. Was praying for her this morning...
You came to mind also, so I prayed for you too.
You know, this is a very brave thing you are doing...going alone. But the truth is, you're not alone. I have a feeling that you are going to be walking into the arms and hearts of the Siestas there who will be READY to be an encouragement to you....but more importantly, God is preparing the way for you, He is with you as you pack and prepare, He will be waiting for you when you get there.
This weekend is sure to be bittersweet, but I am praying that the sweet will be what you remember the most!
It's going to be wonderful and I can't wait to hear what God does! Just prayed for you.
Oh friend...I'm praying and I will continue to pray for you.
I truly believe God has something EXTRA ORDINARY for you....and he's so excited that you'll be setting aside time...to sit at his feed...and allow him to FILL YOU!
He's going before you...preparing the way my friend!
praying for you and lifting you up, my heart and spirit are saying many things, luving you and most importantly as your friends have already said God is with you! and I was just thinking of the verse in Isaiah, He's holding your hand! prayers for courage and strength through every step you are taking.
all my love
Still praying for you...soon it will be in the same building I will be lifting you up to the One who understands and loves you completely!
Thanks for stopping by today- Hope your trip is full of unexpected and powerful moments.
Sweet Siesta,
I am praying for you and I dearly hope to meet you at the celebration this weekend. I am so excited to go, but I completely understand what you are saying about wanting to crawl back in bed. Believe God, He is SO good.
Deidre, I'm so sorry that even this is tough. I guess there's just one tough thing after another when you lose someone you love.
I really want to meet you at the event. Here is my friend's cell phone number 903-288-0193. Maybe you can delete this comment after you write that down :) At any rate, we'd love to meet you and go to dinner or something. I'm so proud of you for coming and really hope this is a great weekend for you. I'll be remembering you all along the way.
Blessings,
Kay
I'm so excited for this opportunity that you have. I'm praying for God to show Himself strong and that you would clearly see why He has you where you are right now. Just praying that He will bless your socks off!
Be careful and have fun!
Deidre - I will be praying for you!!!!!!! I wish I was going - but I didn't do the memory verses -- guess I should've.
I will be praying for you as you travel, and as you go remembering Sweet Pam AND I will be praying that God knocks your socks off with His love and Presence!
Love,
Mindy
God has some great stuff in store for you. And how sweet of your husband to send you.
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