What's the point of my blog? Why don't I choose one particular avenue (crafts, devotions, children, etc.) and stick with it? - wouldn't that make more sense and expand my readers? Why do you think anyone wants to read about your family? (from someone evidently reading about my family ;) Your blog purpose isn't clear. Your blog gives off the impression your family is perfect and no family is.
So, an attempt to put it all in a nice, neat box ...
I'm somewhat comfortable posting cute little stories about my kids or funny things they say. However, Olivia has become quite sensitive to it, actually, so I don't post a fraction of the shenanigans she gets into.
Though she is funny, creative, full-of-life and well-rounded, she doesn't like attention. I learned quickly that she's annoyed when people say "I read about you on your Mom's blog". She withdraws. She doesn't like it one bit. And, as a result, she plays and says things within the comfort of our home and then will quickly follow with, "don't tell anyone that!".
And, that's not okay.
I don't want her to think everything she does is broadcasted, so I chose awhile ago not to share most of her stories.
Emma, on the other hand, reads it daily like it's her baby book. Scratch that. I also believe she reads it to find out what's going on in my head. For instance,she loves to know if I went running, cleaned, cooked and what I was thinking. She has become the girl that hides in the corner or on the sofa when I'm on the phone or have a visitor, listening to every.single.word. while sitting quiet as a mouse so as not to be found out. A polite way to put it? An eavesdropper. Hi Emma!
I never want to come across like we have the perfect life, perfect marriage or perfect children. I try my best to be honest and real, though I will not share my girls' faults, failures, struggles or mistakes. Their bad attitudes are saved for our home (you're welcome :) and I refuse to cross that line. The same goes for posting about my husband.
Though I absolutely have no problem sharing their successes, the way they make me smile and the genuine good they bring to our lives. There is more that can be written about the good anyway. Yes, we celebrate that.
I say all this because that's the struggle I have with this blog. What started out as a 'scrapbook' for my children has evolved into something else, I guess (not sure what, honestly) and when I can't figure out what the true voice of it is, I just get silent.
I'm working through what direction God would have me to go. 'Raising Future Esthers' to me is more than just cute stories about my children and instead is a picture of how God is working through me to raise girls that will love Him at all costs. (If I perish, I perish! Get it?) Sometimes that manifests itself through particular spiritual lessons He's teaching me (that hopefully trickle down to them) .... other times, it manifests itself through just posting about what a day looks like in our house whether it be laundry, creating something fun or how we're coping in this world that is contradictory to how we believe.
Though I by no means have a lot of readers, I do know there's more than just my Mom reading now ;) That responsibility makes me want to be a light for Jesus even more - though never coming across as a perfect home. We are so far from that.
For now ... this blog is for us and a way to express our gratitude for how God attends to our days.
So, I guess that's the point.